just a game?

cake and hands, assi ghat, varanasi, 28th march 2012

I spend a week with them. roughly after alka left. sat there, talked and went home them. came every night. bought one flower . every night. kind of.

we talked a lot, fought a bit, they used my camera, i took images of them, kind of a deal. we had fun. it felt good, honest.

cake, assi ghat, varanasi, 28th march 2012

appreciation and how you define it depends on your upbringing. that's as usual.

My parents. Brought me up to work. this at least was what i said, apparently, to my relatives, when i was 10 years old.

These kids hated me at the end and hopefully the one guy i bought the flowers from as well.

I had a deal and i keep deals. cause i keep a promisse. otherwice it would be wrong. I asked him 2 times to release the deal. but he did not. so i could not do anything cause everything would give a wrong impression.
 
the deal was an early deal. I thought ist was a fun deal. i would buy on my last day all the flowers from one child. thought it would be fun to light all of them with my friends.

Those days i did not know all the other kids.

I brought cake on my last day. and wanted to bring Sprite. but did not. When i came the shop was closed. but i came on time. the kids ate the cake, but not the one. the oldest of them who was actually to old for selling flowers but still did it because there was nothing else he could do.

He die not touch the cake. I offered him, one time, two times.

 
the day before he said he would not eat the cake unless i would release the deal. I could not, because my parents taught me to keep a promise.

Afterwards i thought to give them money. to lie at them and tell them i sold the flowers. to be cheeky and show them i am actually a good one.

I did not. not because of just the lying, just because i have to suffer for my stupidity to make such a deal, to keep such a deal.


the older one was one the closest one to me within those two weeks. he waited two times the whole afternoon for me and i did not come because i did not think we would meet. 

i still can't make any stupid jokes about this incident.

boy, assi ghat, varanasi, 28th march 2012

These kids hated me at the end and hopefully the one guy i bought the flowers from as well.

I had a deal and i keep deals. cause i keep a promisse. otherwice it would be wrong. I asked him 2 times to release the deal. but he did not. so i could not do anything cause everything would give a wrong impression.
 
the deal was an early deal. I thought ist was a fun deal. i would buy on my last day all the flowers from one child. thought it would be fun to light all of them with my friends.

Those days i did not know all the other kids.

I brought cake on my last day. and wanted to bring Sprite. but did not. When i came the shop was closed. but i came on time. the kids ate the cake, but not the one. the oldest of them who was actually to old for selling flowers but still did it because there was nothing else he could do.

He did not touch the cake. I offered him, one time, two times. the day before he said he would not eat the cake unless i would release the deal. I could not, because my parents taught me to keep a promise.

flowerkid, assi ghat, varanasi, 28th march 2012

Afterwards i thought to give them money. to lie at them and tell them i sold the flowers. to be cheeky and show them i am actually a good one.

I did not. not because of just the lying, just because i have to suffer for my stupidity to make such a deal, to keep such a deal.


the older one was one the closest one to me within those two weeks. he waited two times the whole afternoon for me and i did not come because i did not think we would meet. 

i still can't make any stupid jokes about this incident.